Alec has been really fun lately. He's smiling and babbling and almost giggling. It makes all the sleep deprivation and diaper changing so worth it. It makes me really want to enjoy every minute of these next 5 months or so before I will, most likely, return to work.
Evan has been fun too. He tells incredibly long, detailed stories or recounts his dreams in vivid detail. Sometimes it takes all of my concentration to focus, listen and comprehend. It's not that complicated, I'm just that tired.
So, today we made the decision for Evan to go to the public school pre-K program. (Deep breath) I'm terrible at making decisions. Somehow a good part of me thinks there is always more research to be done, that there is one perfect situation if I look long enough or that there is one right answer.
Luckily, as I'm getting older, I realize this isn't true and I'm able to suppress these ideas long enough to make a "good" decision- not "right", not "perfect" just "good". A big part of being better, although only slightly, at decision making is the fact that I'm also getting better at making the best of things. Finding a way to look on the bright side is a skill that is very handy in the life of a parent. (Ok, so my kid just spit up on me. Well, that must mean he won't need to burp and may be less cranky now. Yay!)
Parenting decisions are some of my hardest. This isn't just about me. I really want was is best for the boys, so I debate even longer and agonize even more when it's something for them. Slowly I'm learning to find the right fit for us instead of just what is "right". This takes knowing who we are as a family, who I am as a parent and being ok with that. A tall order indeed.
1 comment:
Nice post- you're doing great!
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